Freedom...Release

"Freedom" ~Run Kid Run

This is such an awesome and beautiful song. For the longest time, I wasn't able to hear what the song was saying, until I saw this video that actually had the lyrics xD... but yeahs, thank you Vivian for showing this song to us months ago during worship team orientations :]. As Christians, we know that ultimately our sins and shortcomings will be, in the end, compeletely and wholly stripped away. Sometimes though, it feels that though Christ has taken away all that keeps us from Him, we're the ones holding onto what keeps us from drawing closer and completely trusting Him. Why do we hold on to these things? Why can't we just let go? And why is it so hard? My spirit is willing but my body is weak...or is my spirit even willing? "Oh(All) my chains, I can't disengage...and I don't believe that I want to. One hand sings Your praise, the other brings me shame...I have selfishness to blame..."

For myself, sometimes I just feel so overcome with my own selfishness, yet I feel like somehow I am just holding onto it...it's not God's fault, it's my own. I know in my heart that what Christ did on the cross two-thousand years ago did it completely for me; I am to God His child, by His grace...and sometimes I forget that I, in actually since I've been a Christian, always have bEEN free. (Thank you Michelle for your old MTB post reminding me of this xD). But (why) do I hold on to my chains of putting my self before God? "I keep holding my chains, no longer bound but here I stay."

God reminds me...that in the end, there's only love. In Christ I have life, and what I need to do is let go, die, to my old self and grab hold of the new life He's set before me. I know I don't feel it in the actual moments of dispair...but I do know that when I get out, that line rings true: "Dispair has come so you can see...release...". God will see us through all our pains, I trust and believe; even the ones we put upon ourselves. His love has no bounds.

Done xD.