I am feeling judged...which makes me very introspective, which is not good. My heart desperately cried out for help for someone to save me from my selfish heart. I didn't get it from my brothers and sisters like I expected but instead through Him, by His grace, so that I wouldn't rely on my bros/siss but on Him. I see connections to 1 Corinthians... So I've been praying to get out of this cycle of self-centeredness and this song is helping me a lot to focus on what God is doing rather than how imperfect I am now. I'm too concerned with being spiritually mature in people's eyes rather than God's. I should be searching for God and surrendering to Him to let Him shape me.
So this song is for all those other people who are feeling judged and inadequate: you may be small and standing in the storm. You may be bare and cold now, but your season's coming and you will spring up in His faithfulness(one of which is to mature you to Christ's likeness, for His glory of course). Because your roots are deep in Him and you'll grow branches that bear fruit. For you are planted by the river of life and you'll grow up strong and beautiful for His splendor! You will blossom into what He hopes you to be. Rejoice in the Lord always; Rejoice! Do not be anxious about anything. For you can do all things through Him who strengthens you. He is able to save you from yourself. He is that powerful. Please trust Him...No more thinking how useless you are. Rest in His power and hope in your future, the new fate bought with His shed blood, evidenced by His resurrection, and sealed with the Helper. Humble yourself, embrace your badness because this needs to happen before His grace will be sufficient, and before you will to be able to praise Him with all your heart out of gratitude and awe of His love/grace/power/faithfulness/gentleness. Keep seeking God (who He is and His will for whatever He's placing in your heart) for He rewards those who seek Him. God promises this and our faithful God is kind of good at keeping promises ;)
I am so concerned with what I look like from the outside
And will I blossom in to what you hope I’ll be.
Yet you are so patient just to help me see that blooms come from the deepest seed that you planted in me.
Some times it’s hard to grow when ever body is watching.
To have your heart pruned by the One who knows best
Although I am bare and cold I know my season’s coming
And I will spring up in….in this faithfulness.
CHORUS:
With my roots deep in you
I will grow the branch that bares the fruit
And though I’m small I still will be standing in the storm.
Cause I am planted by the river
By your streams of living water
And I will grow up strong and beautiful all for your splendor Lord.
So with my arms stretched out I am swaying to your heartbeat.
I am growing with the sound of your voice calling
You are bringing out the beauty that you had put in me
For your joy and for your glory falling.
