It's Not Over ('cause He's never gonna) Leave You Alone...

So I haven't really posted in a long time, so sorry if these thoughts are really jumbled... I'm trying to get my thoughts out while doing hw xP...
But anyways... I stumbled across these two songs and they really spoke to me. If you didn't know already, this is my senior year, and it's been really stressful - having to deal with preparing for college, for a career, for the rest of my life. It may sound kind of weird, but, being a control freak, I always kind of freak out when I can't do something. When I can't control the situations I'm in, or what will come in my future.
These songs really came to me at an amazing time. I've been feeling really low actually, in terms of not knowing what's to come. If you know me, you know that I've always wanted to have lots of kids and a wonderful life with a wonderful husband, a wonderful house, etc. But, as these college choices and things began to approach, I've really questioned whether or not I could ever actually be... happy in my future. Now I know, I sound so stupid and stuff... "Abi, come on, 5 kids? A beautiful husband? You know you can't always have what you want. Just give it up." To be honest, yes, I know that I need to give up these things, but it IS really hard. In addition, to make things harder, recently I've been feeling like I can't succeed in the future because of the poor choices I've already made. I feel like I've wasted my time away doing what? Nothing.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that, when I heard these song, they really helped me see that, even though my dreams may be crushed, and I may not have that white picket fence, or that perfect life, it doesn't mean that my life is over. Though I face adversity and trials, it doesn't mean that there's nothing else left that's worth living for. And once adversity is over, though it's far from true to say that I'd never ever face any more again, there is a brand new day, a future awaiting me, awaiting you. And whether you take that as this life isn't over, or that when this life ends, there's an even greater life to live forever, that's up to you. Try looking at it both ways, because it is true both ways.
(A good friend recently told me a few things that've helped, too. Two lessons. 1. Always take on life with optimism. 2. God loves you, so suck it up!)
So no one has to stress out, or pull out their lustrous hair, because whatever we've done, we can move forward from. Whatever we have to face, we can overcome. Not because we alone can do it, but because God can and will pull us through. We can't do things alone. And the best part about that is, we will never have to. =)

Don't look back
Leave what's broken in the past,
Take my hand, and understand,
...
Don't give up
We've only just begun
I believe, I believe

It's not over,
The best is yet to come for us,
Come for us.
Night has faded,
A brand new day has come for us,
Come for us.

- It's Not Over - Stellar Kart

You'll never have to do this alone
Walking the tightrope and bracing the fall
No matter what you've done this far
He's still chasing your broken heart
He's never gonna leave you alone

- Leave You Alone - Chasen