Faith in God that I am a Change in the Making

So, Michelle, Mayen and Neilson has finally left my house! Took forever! :P I don't know how to do this really, if I do anything wrong, say anything wrong; if I have a misconception about anything, TELL ME!! Please! Do!

Anyways, lately, I have been really frustrated with myself. I keep asking: why can't I be a better person? Why can't I be humbler, more patient, more GENUINE, less hypocritical, less selfish, less lazy, less cynical? I keep finding faults in myself, and if I'm not finding faults in myself, I'm setting expectations that require a long period of time to reach. And, I know what things to say to myself to comfort me, rather, I know what things OTHER people would say to comfort me. Yet, somehow, although my brain can take my advice in, my heart, my soul can't. It's frustrating!
To make matters worse, I have this really, really, really bad habit of always being unsatisfied. When I reach an expectation, I make an even higher expectation to reach. So, that kind of adds to the frustration level.

I really like this song because, first of all, hehe, it's nice to know that I'm not alone in these frustrations. I know, I know so self-conceited and spoiled to realize that there are not only other people who share my upsets, but a God, Jesus, :D.

But this song also calls me to have more faith in God, in his GREAT power. I've been so caught up with me, trying so hard to better myself, that I've forgotten how great our God is. "From the dawn of history/you made new and you redeem/from a broken world to a broken heart/you finish what you start in everything" Our God can do ANYTHING, and everything he does is perfect; from the beginning to the end of every work he takes on, he's there; what can he not do?

WHY SHOULD I DOUBT THAT I WON'T BE A FAILURE?

I need to listen to Him, have faith in what He tells me to do, what He is capable of. I need to have faith that I am a "change in the making"; "I'm not who I'm gonna be", but who he wants me to be, which is the perfect way for me to be. I need to have faith that with "every step that I'm taking," he's "chipping away what I don't need." For, "this is me under construction...my pride being broken," and with "everyday, I'm closer to who I'm meant to be" because "I'm a change in the making.

Also, please ignore the second time the song is posted. I don't know how to delete it! ....

Run

For this song, I highly suggest that you close your eyes and just take in the lyrics. It is a really good song, and I don't really have much more to say about it. Just that I think that at times, we all feel like we're stuck, and we don't know where to go in this great big world. But no matter what, keep pressing on, keep running, because life isn't a treadmill. It'll end, and it'll be a blessed ending for us...

Stoplights, breakdown, we cry, last try
Worlds collide, time to decide
Where you want to go in this great big world
Where you want to go in this great big world

Stuck here too long in this sad song
Lost in a street, everyone has
Vanished and you're all alone
But you don't know where to go
Yeah you're all alone
And you want to go home

Run just as fast as you can
Run, 'til you reach the end
Where the fallen finally land
And your world starts over again
Run

Next page, new day, finding my way
Stumble upon the strength to move on
I am not alone in this great big world
And you are not alone in this great big world

Run just as fast as you can
Run, 'til you reach the end
Where the fallen finally land
And your world starts over again
Run now don't you look back
Run towards the light straight ahead
Where the lost souls make a beautiful sound
And new life is finally found
Run

Your free, free falling
A new beginning
This is our time

Run just as fast as you can
Run, 'til you reach the end
Where the fallen finally land
And your world starts over again
Run now don't you look back
Run towards the light straight ahead
Where the lost souls make a beautiful sound
And new life is finally found
Run

What Do I Know Of Holy?

So, this song is courtesy of Annie. When I heard it, i fell in love. At the same time, it's convicting. The second verse hits home. All too often, we talk the talk without walking the walk. "I knew all the stories and learned to talk of how You were mighty to save. Those were only empty words on a page." But honestly, these stories, and that fact are just a glimpse of the real picture... They're just a fraction of the pixel.
I was looking through some pictures recently, which I just posted on fb (;D), and it just hit me. The sunset is SO beautiful, no camera can ever capture it. But here in this picture, it's just displayed in a way that brings me awe. I'm not trying to be prideful in my picture taking, but i'm so glad that God provided this artwork for me to even view with my own eyes.
And when we think that we've got things figured out, we really don't. We are so small in this great big world. What do we really know? We think we know so much. We're put into institutions and compete for better SAT scores, but what are SATs but just mere tests. They may determine our college, but they don't determine our life. It's sad how we can just think that God's power is limited to textbooks, to tests, to earthly things.
What do we know of life? "And the God who gave life it's name"... I love that line... We don't know anything. We always say how life is hard, but God is the one who gave it it's name, who gave us life. He is amazing, and we can never comprehend his majesty at all. We think that life is all about us, that it's meant to bring us pleasure, but who is it really for? Who are you living your life for?
Yes, he is mighty to save, but lets not just say it. Lets live it...

What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?